
I promised to meet Katherine (one of my form 6 friends) last Wednesday. I was so excited. Went to IOI mall with her, had lunch together and cried out hearts out. We talked about studies, school days and sweethearts.. hahaha.. I am so glad that Katherine has changed a lot for the better. Back then, she was the most peculiar girl I have ever met. When others went to canteen during recess, she would stay in the class doing math. It was hard to her smiles and to discover what kind of person she really is as she rarely opened up to people. But that was two years ago. Now she is a better Katherine. She has made more friends and she would be the one calling me to join the rest for “yamcha”. The most interesting part that she shared when we met stroked me with excitement. She finally has someone special.. wow..=)
Nonetheless, Katherine is only part of what I intend to write actually.. the same fine day, Sia Pui Yan and Yap Wai Hong joined us. But it was unplanned… both of them just happened to work there. Since the group got bigger, the sharing expanded from one topic to another. Here are several questions asked to summarize the two-hour conversation;
1) Where are you studying now
2) When are you getting engaged
3) What is your major?
4) What are you going to be?
5) When is your final year?
And many more……
I felt down when answering those questions.. because compared to my friends.. I am far left behind.. I still have another 3 years to finish my degree. When I got into IPBA in 2009, the pressure was almost unbearable. Being among those who are younger than me makes me feel like I belong neither with them nor with my friends who are already in their final year. Thing that I regret most is my late application. If only I got into IPBA right after my SPM, I would have gone abroad..and 2012 would me my final year. I often told my mom how I regret that I did not apply earlier and her response would always silence me. “Tak baik berkalau-kalau… setiap apa yang terjadi tu ada hikmahnya”, she said. Those words are truly magical that they have the power to neutralize all the negative feelings I have about myself. Therefore, whenever I feel regretful, these are the things I would remind myself of;
1) Better late than never
2) The scholarship that I’m receiving helps a lot in lessening the burdens my parents have to shoulder
3) Age is just a number
4) Total of 5 ½ years is not that long if I enjoy every moment
5) There’s nothing wrong to be different
6) Say “If had applied earlier and studied abroad, I might not have met my wonderful form 6 friends and Raja Asyraf <3” instead of
“If I had applied earlier, I would have studied abroad”
7) Every cloud has a silver lining
The last on the list has the biggest impact…
Instead of regretting the past which cannot be undone, isn’t it better to move forward and cherish every single day with gratefulness? Dear friends… life does not always turn out the way we expect. In my life, I’ve met a lawyer who gave up her career to be a fulltime housewife, a doctor with passion in art and a law student who ended up taking business. The simplest explanation for these instances is that God has plans for us. No matter how our life twists, live it to the fullest and if it turns out to be something you hate, learn to love it… because without love, passion and interest, life is gonna be hell for you.